All week people have been warning me about "the vortex" that is Santa Cruz. People get stuck here. I'm beginning to see why. My week of experiences here has given me a new outlook on everything. I find myself coming out of a shell that I didn't know I was in for the most part. It feels good. It feels weird. I want to know what's on the other side of myself.
I had a plan the other day to "introspect". I took a walk to a local cafe in the sun with a notebook and pen and nothing came. I sat and tried to go inside my heart and my mind and figure out where the thoughts and feelings fit into the desire of my soul. Nothing. It was just so beautiful outside. The coffee was delicious. I was just "being". Holy s*&t - I'm just being! The soul doesn't require action on my part. Action is secondary. I'm finally beginning to get it.